He walks in my dreams. I can love him if I want. But how can I love him? How can I love him? How, when my life is a jumble-up mess? I want to love him, I truly do. I truly believe he is the boy. I want to feel his love. But my life.................. I have to fix my life, for me to love him. I want to love him so much, that it breaks my heart to know I can't, for my life. It is a pure mess. My life........ I want him to love me as I love him. I love him so much it hurts my soul to know I will never see him again in just a few years. My heart hurts just thinking we will leave each other. I know he is perfect for me, I believe that. I WANT to believe that.

I truly love him so much..........