No one can know my pain

This is my burden

No one truly understands

If they did

The anguish would crush them

Some days the Blackness seems friendly

Curling around me

Asking me to enter a place I know I can never leave

I wear a smiling mask

When I am alone, hidden  

I take it off

I can cry and be weak

A place where no one needs me to be strong or whole

I can drop the farce

And let my heart scream, and cry

A place where no one judges me

Criticizes me

Tells me what to do

Insults those I love

How much longer must I endure?

Heartache is my companion

Home remains my dearest dream

A family that loves and accepts each other

A day where I will finally remove this cloak of shadows

I’ll wear a gown of pure white

Adorned with brilliant shards of starlight

My jewelry made of crystal tears

Sending rainbows arcing into Eternity’s light

When my mask will fall off

When I will smile for real

My heart will be finally free

A life never-ending

In a perfect paradise

No fear

All things forgiven

A place where I can forget the screaming

The fear of being ripped from my parents

The insults from family member to family member

The feeling of not being able to do anything right

The shame of having nowhere to go

The sorrow of seeing another’s tears

The feeling of hopelessness

The knowledge that you are a burden

The cares of the world rest on your shoulders

A once happy innocent child becomes

A figure shrouded in black

Bent double

Pushed into shadow

Carrying woe

Knowing that children must grow up

That the happy light will be crushed

In a dark cruel world

Eventually rekindled

To shine forever

All scars will vanish

The bent will stand tall once more

The day the Lion walks with the Lamb

The day we are welcomed Home

Children will never know pain or fear

Adults will not remember the trouble of life

The raging sea

Will forever be calm

By the cross I’ll enter in

By His Love I will be freed

By His stripes I am healed

By His grace I am redeemed

My pain He has felt

My anguish was long ago understood

I know I am no burden

The fights are meaningless

The fear is invalid

My Father will always be beside me

Hopelessness was long ago defeated

My cloak is fading

The pain is still present

But now, I know

That this too shall pass

This He has promised me

For all eternity