Have you even found yourself thinking about the past? Have you ever wished that you could change the past. Was it just one thing you want to change or two, three, four things.

Well I found myself thinking back on the summer of 2015....When I had an amazing chance to go to Yellowstone National Park in Wyoming...After I flew out and got there....I got to meet a lot of really cool people from all over the United States, but this one guy stuck out to me.... (His name will not be said, but if the guy I am talking about reads this and wants to talk more he can message me)....He was from Illinois, very tall, super handsome, loved basketball (and still does), super caring, hard worker, the list goes on and on.... We talked for a day or two and then it was more like every now and then we would talk.... I thought at first it was because he was a youth leader and had a lot of stuff to do. But as time went on I realized that was not it at all.... I was really hurt.... He started to hang out a lot with a few of the other girls that were sleeping in the same room as me.... A few of them knew why he was not talking to me but would not tell me.... Which hurt even more.... After a week or two I started to notice that one girl was spending a lot of time with him and yes I did get a little jealous, and her best friend slept in the same room as I did.... Don't get me wrong both of them are super nice and sweet, but I started to avoid them as much as I could.... I never verbalized my pain or dislike but he could tell.... there was no keeping secrets around him.... He could read it off your face or in your body language.... So when a crew leader took a couple of the youth members on a run with him and I hurt my ankle even though I said I was fine and didn't need help or anything, he could tell I was in a lot of pain and knew I was not going to say anything.... So the first two weeks are over.... So it went on like this for a week or two and I was just going about work and life.... Helping were ever I could or it was needed.... Week three and four are over.... Now week five was a hard one....I knew I was leaving and he did too, and he finally talked to me and explained why he had not been talking to me.... At that point was just so much to take in I held it together long enough for him to get called away by a crew leader I took off to my room, before he could come back, I still remember what he told me.... Did I understand any of it? Um a little....Did I ask for clarification? no I did not.... I was to heated to talk to anyone....

You would think this would be a happy time but not so much :(
I am happy to say he and i are on really great terms now. We have been dating for about two weeks.... while it is long distance we make it work....