A thought

What is a thought?

A thought is words you don't always speak
A thought is the secrets you long to share
A thought is the emotions you feel
A thought is what causes those emotions

A thought crosses your mind when you see the young man again

A thought is his smile
A thought is the invitation you give him
A thought is the jokes you tell to break the frozen ice
A thought is a stroll through a snow covered park
A thought is the warm air between you even though it's below freezing
A thought is the first kiss you share by a fire
A thought is the white veil you wear on your crown
A thought is the jokes you share when no one's looking
A thought is cooing at a small bundle as it smiles at its two idols
A thought is watching it walk and talk

A thought is when he raises his slurred voice
A thought is another argument as the child sleeps
A thought is the slam of the door as you leave
A thought is the tears that stream down your face
A thought is the sound of cars on the highway far, far away
A thought is the blinding light coming towards you
A thought is the moment everything goes red, then black, then white

A thought is when he looks at you, wondering why you're staring
A thought is realizing you were
A thought is his smile
A thought is when you imagined a life
A life that you'll never have
A life that is just a thought,
You tell yourself, as you walk over and give him an invitation

A thought is what comes next