So! Fun fact I told my parents I was having issues, y'know being like really upset over the smallest things that literally no one else cares about. And also about how much stress I have rn.

Yeah. It's a lot. Won't explain everything but long story short:

I have clinical depression.

This doesn't surprise me. I've been through some shit. What surprises me is that my mom has it, her mom had it, and she thought that I might.

DIDNT CARE TO MENTION THAT BEFORE?!?!?!?

IVE BEEN CRYING MYSELF TO SLEEP AND THOUGHT SOMETHING WAS WRONG WITH ME AND I WAS BROKEN.

I mean I am, but like it can be diagnosable and prevented to a point.

BUT NO ONE CARED TO TELL ME, "Yeah taking a break mentally and having a chill weekend would be good for you." OR " you should just relax instead of overworking yourself."

I'm having a hard time rn and telling me I have depression then not telling me what to do about it?????

I need a break, but am at the point in my life where I can't take a break. Stress and struggles. I am soooooo tired I can't even breathe right.

That's another issue tho.

Buy yeah. I am really not doing to hot rn and I'm sorry I haven't updated this shit tier book thing. :)