So. I've mentioed it before, that I do competition swimming. And I signed up for a travel meet. But I think I over estimated my will to live.

A few things. I have wanted to go on a travel meet for years. Ever since before covid hit. Covid directly stopped me from a travel meet and it felt personal. So now, I try to go to any I can. I can't usually. Either I need times, I hve previous plans, or sign up has passed.

Another key factor. Last year, I did an open water meet. (I swam long distance in a lake) It was a 4k. It actually killed me. Several meets and practices later, and long story short, I developed a problem. We still don't know what. But it revolves around my lungs, chest, and breathing. Especially while swimming. (no it's not athsma, they tested me for that) So, if I push myself too hard, I have to get out of the pool. Never in a race. After races it feels like hell and I'm in excrutiating pain, but I always do my races. This health problem hasn't stopped me.

I am going on a travel meet to another state soon. It's a few states over and very expensive to go (bless my parents for paying it). I signed up before I found out exactly what I was doing. I am now swimming a 5k and then after a team event.

I am afraid of my issues. I think they will cause me unmeasurable amounts of pain during this 5k. Cause here's the thing, Last year, I didn't have this. I did a 4k. It kicked my ass. I now have a problem, and I am doing a 5k.

So. In short. I am still doing it. I am a persistent and stubborn asshole. I will swim it even though my chances of hurting myself are high. I signed up for it and im not injured or sick. You can bet your ass that I will take over an hour, but I will do it. I don't give up. My parents hate it. My coach hates it. My friends find it annoying.

So yeah I'll try to update!!