I can´t believe half of the stuff I go through. Like....Training for hours on end. To literally get to state. Not even win an event. Just. Get there. Cause I have so much going against me, that it seems impossible. And the pain that I endure. To just. Get stronger. It´s crazy actually. Like I´m thinking back on everything I´ve done. And what I´m willing to put up with...It´s insane. I have pushed my body to the actual limits before. Sometimes, when I´m really tired, I´ll look at what I´ve done and just question myself. Why do I put myself through all of this. Just to get somewhere?? I´m CRAZY. But, at the end of the day, I still go to practice. I still push myself. I will get stronger because I am literally crazy for doing this, but honestly...there´s others who do the same. But I´m willing to do better. And THAT people, is why I need my sleep.

But SOME people (sibling) DON´T SHUT UP WHEN I´M TRYING TO SLEEP.

Thanks for listing to my rant guys. I needed to do that.