TW: Mentions of death, daggers, blood, sorta self harm, choking

(Y/n’s pov) 

We all tried to be as quiet as possible as we sneaked down the hallway, I made it so my heels didn’t make any sounds. Theodore stopped us “What about Enzo?”. I thought for a moment before I nodded my head and waved my hand for them to follow me. 

We continued weaving through the hallways until we came to his room. I tried to open the door but it was locked. Indu stepped in front of me and had the door opened in a second. Enzo was inside on his bed. He looked up at us and slowly walked to us. Suddenly there was shouting from the end of the hall, guards “We need to go” I called out. Enzo looked very confused but we had no time to sit around. Theodore pulled him out of the room and pushed him down the hall in the opposite direction from the guards and we all took off running. Enzo had enough sense to start running too.

After we had been running for a while my feet were starting to hurt and I almost twisted my ankle and fell but Indu grabbed me. “Stupid heels” Indu quickly helped me out of the heels then I grabbed them and we continued running. The hallway came to a split and the boys started going in the wrong direction. “It’s this way” I called out to them before they followed me. 

Right as we got to the side exit 20 or so guards surrounded us. I was about to do something but then there was a blinding blueish-white light that filled the room and when it was gone all the guards were on the floor. I looked at Indu, whose eyes were still glowing the same blue-white “When did you learn that?” 

“I’ll tell you later” She grabbed my hand and we all went out the exit and were finally able to apparate to the astronomy tower. 

I was breathing very heavily and dropped to the ground and just sat there. The others looked at me worried but I put my hand up to say I was ok. 

Theodore and Mattheo left to take Enzo to the hospital wing because they didn’t know what was wrong with him and Indu and Thomas stayed with me. Indu sat next to me “How are you feeling?” 

“Ok, better than I have in a while. There's still a few blank spaces of things I don’t remember, but I’m hoping they will come back with time” 

“And if they don’t” 

“Then I will have you guys tell me. So how long are you staying?” I asked, changing the subject 

“However long you like” She smiled 

I gave her a side hug. “Then you're going to be here for a long time. Are you going back to America for summer?” 

“I mean, unless you want me to stay with you, I have nowhere else to stay” 

“Trust me, you don’t want to spend the summer at my house” 

“Hmm. Oh, I forgot to mention, were roommates” 

“Ohw, I liked having a private room” I said before I started laughing

“I saw you still have the dreamcatcher I made you” 

“Yep, it actually helps tremendously” 

“Your welcome” 

“Speaking of dreams, I’m tired” Indu got up and gave me a hand to pull me up. I turned towards Thomas “Happy new year” I smiled before apparating to my dorm with Indu. 

My dorm looked like it had gotten a little bit bigger and there were two beds now. I changed out of my dress, took a shower, and got ready for bed. I fell asleep the second my head hit the pillow. 

When I woke up my whole body was sore and I had a bad headache. I told Indu that she could go down to breakfast without me, it took a lot of convincing but she eventually left me.  

I made my way to the bathroom and stared at myself in the mirror. I thought back to yesterday. All that I had done, and everyone just forgave me. How could they forgive me? Why did they still want to be around me after everything I did? And Malachi, he was dead now. I had killed him. And yet I didn’t feel any better. Ok maybe I felt a little better but I didn’t feel the way I thought it would have felt. For the most part, I just felt worse. I was able to kill him. Me. It made me feel powerful, and it made me realize how similar we had become, we both used dark magic and siphoning to get what we wanted. I was becoming more similar to him more than I wanted to admit. Revenge had blinded me, just like Mattheo said it would. A thousand other thoughts filled my head then then left, and I was left looking at myself in the mirror, wondering who I was, who I had become. 

I wasn’t used to all the emotions. I barely had to deal with them when I was with Malachi, the tea kept me calm. Yesterday was the first time in a while I had felt strong emotions, and I had ended up killing someone. 

I tried to calm myself down but nothing worked. Nothing worked. I needed some way to release my emotions that weren't destructive, but I could think of nothing. I pushed off the countertop and sank to the floor. 

I didn’t know how he knew, maybe it was through the bond or just a sibling thing, but Mattheo was suddenly at the bathroom door. 

He looked down at me then pulled me up and brought me to my bed. I sat leaning up against the headboard as he sat on the end of the bed. We were silent for a couple of minutes before he spoke up “What's going on?” He asked softly 

I tilted my head and shrugged my shoulders, not trusting myself to talk yet. 

“Come on” He said in the same tone as before “You can tell me” 

“Emotions” I whispered 

The corners of his mouth turned down slightly but he said nothing. Instead he pulled me into a warm hug. He always gave the best hugs. I didn’t hug him back, I just sat there, not that he seemed to mind. 

(Mattheo’s pov)

She suddenly pulled back and winced as she put her hands to her head “Y/n?” 

“The voic-” She stopped and shut her eyes tight, folding forward in pain. I was vaguely aware of shadows appearing in the corners of the room and seeping closer to us. 

The door opened and quickly slammed shut as Indu appeared next to me and pushed me away. She grabbed Y/n’s hands and whitish-blue coils started to wrap around their wrists. “Y/n” Indu’s voice was soft. A second later Y/n looked up at Indu and gave a small smile. 

Indu looked at me before turning back to Y/n and squeezing her hands once before going to sit on her bed. I sat back down at the end of Y/n’s bed. “Are you ok?” I asked

She looked down uncertainty “The voices are back” She declared 

“I thought the voices were Malachi?” 

“They were. I think. But the voice is different now” 

“Do you recognize it?” I asked 

“I do, but I can’t quite place who” 

Thomas appeared by the windows and glanced at Y/n “Y/n is hearing the voices again” I explained 

He nodded once “That might have something to do with the fact that father is mad at you. He requests to see you” 

Y/n’s face changed to anger “I do not wish to see him, he will lock me away again and try to come up with another way to brainwash me” 

“I won't leave your side” Thomas promised

She rolled her eyes but got up “Fine” 

(Thomas’s pov) 

I grabbed her hand and we apparated home, to the meeting room. All the chairs were empty right now except the far head of the table, where father sat. 

He glared at Y/n and she took a small step forward. “It has come to my attention that you are back at Hogwarts” 

“Yes, you are correct” She nodded 

“You are not done with your training yet” 

“Well there's no one to train me since Malachi’s dead” 

“Do you know who killed him?” He asked 

“I mean it could've been anyone at the party” She shrugged 

“He had been stabbed, then killed. I know very few people who would use knives or daggers” He glared back at her “I have reason to believe it was one of you” He looked between the two of us “Or Mattheo. So who was it?” 

“Fine. You want me to tell you who did it? It was me. No other person could have possible killed him” 

“Hmm” He stared at her for a second “There was another girl with you at the ball, who was she?” 

I could see Y/n’s hands make fists behind her “Just a girl from school” 

“Just a girl from school?” He questioned slowly 

“Yes” 

“I want to meet her” 

“May I ask for what reason? She’s not anything special” 

“I want to know the people you surround yourself with. Shouldn't all parents know their children's friends?” He asked innocently

She nodded “I guess” 

“This weekend” He declared then turned and disappeared through the back door. 

The second that he left Y/n’s face turned to pure anger and hate. I grabbed her arm and we apparated to the forbidden forest. She turned to me “Why did you have to bring her to the ball?” 

“She didn’t give me much of a choice” I replied 

She turned away then screamed at the top of her lungs and waved her hand, uprooting a tree and throwing it deeper into the forest. Shadows snaked around her hands as she turned back to me “You could have lied to her, kept her out of this disaster, and yet you didn’t” 

Vines came out from nowhere and pulled me to the ground. Something had switched in her and she looked at me like she had never seen me before. A vine snaked around my neck and started getting tighter and tighter. 

(Y/n’s pov) 

His face started getting paler and paler until his eyes closed and he fell limp. He wasn’t dead, but he was close. I suddenly felt a hand on my shoulder that turned me around. It was Indu. She grabbed onto my hands and started mumbling something but I had vines grab her as well and pull her away, I didn’t need any help and I didn’t want her seeing this. 

Then Mattheo and Theodore were there, their wands were pointed at me in defense “I don’t want to hurt you” I declared 

“Then why did you hurt Thomas?” Mattheo asked 

“Because I felt like it” I glanced at Thomas then Mattheo “You of all people should understand” 

He shook his head “I don’t understand” 

I approached him and I could hear Theodore go to help Thomas. We came face to face “You of all people should understand the feeling of the darkness, of the blood” 

I fiddled with my dagger “You said you didn’t want to hurt me” He recalled

I shrugged “I don’t, but it would be fun to watch. Especially if you did it to yourself” I waved my wand and blue light came out. His mind went blank and he grabbed his dagger.

(Theodore’s pov) 

I looked up just in time to see Y/n cast the imperius curse on Mattheo. Mattheo grabbed his dagger. I looked away, I couldn’t see him hurting himself. I heard his pain, I couldn’t take it. I got up and ran at Y/n, trying to knock her down, trying to do anything to break her focus. I could tell she hadn’t used this spell enuff times to be that good at it. She held up her hand and sent me flying before turning her attention back to Mattheo who screamed in pain. I couldn’t take it anymore. I whispered “Sorry” and tried to think of anything else I could do but my mind came up blank. I held up my wand and pointed it at Y/n “Crucio” I whispered before Y/n fell to the ground. I could now see Mattheo who was covered in his own blood. He looked around confused before his eyes landed on me. I kept my wand on Y/n as I walked over to him. 

Indu had broken out of the vines and appeared in the clearing. She took everything in. “Can you help Thomas?” I asked and she nodded. She quickly walked over to him and in a couple seconds the vines were off and she helped Thomas up and over to us. 

“He just needs a bit of rest” She explained 

I nodded “Can you handle Y/n?” I asked 

“I should be able to” 

I apparated Thomas to his bedroom and helped him onto his bed then apparated to Mattheo’s dorm.

Mattheo insisted on healing himself but I knew he was in no place to be doing that. “Just let me help” I had learned how to heal and went to the bathroom to grab a hand towel and get it wet. When I stepped back into the room he had taken his bloody shirt off and was lying on his bed. I quickly wiped down all the blood from his arms and chest then healed all the cuts. 

We sat there in silence for a minute before he spoke up “How did you do it?” He asked 

“Do what?” I asked confused 

He looked down at his lap “How did you- why did you…” He didn’t know what to say. He looked up at me “The cruciatus curse… How were you able to do it to her” I couldn’t tell if he was mad at me or just confused or what. 

“I don’t know” I looked down. “I couldn’t think of anything else to do to get her to stop… my mind went blank…” I could feel my eyes tearing up now thinking about what I had done “I- I couldn’t sit around while you were like that” I felt a tear roll down my cheek 

“Hey” Mattheo said softly “I’m not mad. You saved me” He gave me a small smile

Suddenly Thomas appeared in the middle of the room. He still looked a little weak.  

“What are you doing here?” Mattheo asked 

(Mattheo’s pov) 

“Father wants to meet Indu, I believe he knows about her power” Thomas answered. He slowly made his way over to the bed next to us and sat down, wincing slightly. 

“What does that have to do with us?” I asked

“Mattheo, she's tearing herself up about it. You and Theodore are the closest people to her, she needs you” 

“She always needs help”

“Mattheo” Theodore turned his head to look at me. After a couple seconds of silence he spoke again “Well if your not going to help I will”

He went to stand up but I grabbed his wrist, he pried his hand from my grip and disappeared.

(Theodores pov) 

When I appeared in her room she turned and pointed her wand at me “Who are you?” She asked threateningly

I put my hands up. Malachi must have really messed up her mind “I come in peace, as a friend, I’m Theodore” 

She put the wand down and began pacing “Theodore, Theodore, Theodore…” She kept muttering to herself over and over, trying to remember until it suddenly clicked “Theodore- Theo… Nott” She looked up at me as if for confirmation 

I nodded my head “Yes, Theodore Nott- Theo” 

Her face was blank as she looked away “I recognize the name. I-” She stopped “Why can’t I remember you, it’s like a memory just out of reach” She looked around the room before her eyes darted back to me. She stepped closer until she was right in front of me. She looked down at my hand “Can I do a spell?” She asked 

“Uh, yeah, sure” 

“Can I touch your hand?” She asked cautiously, almost like she was suddenly scared and unsure about everything. 

“Ah- yes” I held up my hand slightly and she grabbed it and closed her eyes. I felt a prick of something run through my body before she opened her eyes again and I knew she remembered again. 

There was a sudden alertness and a frown formed on her face “When was the last time you saw Liam?”