TW: Mentions of daggers, Negative thoughts?

(Y/n’s pov) 

My eyes fluttered open to be met with Mattheo’s and Theodore’s gazes. I had a bad headache and was sore all over. Not to mention the fact that I felt extremely tired and sick. I felt so powerless that I might actually be powerless, or I had very little magic. 

“How do you feel?” Mattheo asked 

It took me a second to reply because I was so out of it “Terrible” I replied 

“I told you not to do it, you don’t know the consequences” 

“There wasn’t enough time, he was losing too much blood too fast, and I can bet the dagger was spelled by Malachi so that only his magic could heal it. If I hadn’t of helped Theodore would be dead right now” 

“Then how would your magic be able to heal it if it needed his magic?” 

“When he stabbed me there must had been some of his magic in the dagger that I absorbed or something” I took a lot of energy to just talk and I lowered my voice “I really don’t know” 

He went into the bathroom and came back with a glass of something “Here, hit helps numb the pain” He explained, holding the glass out for me

I hesitantly took the glass and drank it. It helped numb most of the pain but not all, I still had a bad migraine. 

(Mattheo’s pov)

I started talking with Theodore again but couldn’t help but notice Y/ns expression. She was still in pain, she didn’t bring it up so I was going to wait till Theodore had left. 

Theodore left a little while later and after I closed the door I looked over to Y/n who was lying in her bed, staring at the ceiling. “Are you sure you're ok?” 

She remained silent for a second before replying “No” She stated “I’m not ok, when am I ever ok?” Her voice started to rise as she sat up and looked towards me “When am I ever not in pain?” 

“Y/n-” I tried to talk but she started talking over me

“Ever since I started here, my life has been nothing but pain and suffering, I just don’t know if I can take it anymore. If this is what the rest of my life is going to be like then I don’t want it, I don’t want to live like this constantly”

“Y/n-” I raised my voice more 

“No no no no, I can’t do this, I can’t do this” She put her hands through her hair and pulled her knees into her chest. 

“Y/n” I said, softly placing my hand on her shoulder and she looked up at me with tears in her eyes “You are my sister, and one of my closest friends, you went through things that no one else did, and you're still here. You are one of the strongest people I know, and without you I don’t know who I would be. If you die then I’m alone” 

“What about Thomas or Theodore?” She asked quietly 

“They are not you, your special and no one else would be able to fill the void that you would leave behind” 

“Do we still have to go to that meeting tonight?” She asked, trying to change the subject

“I do, but you don’t”

“Why do you still have to go?” 

“I don’t know” I looked down “Will you be ok when I leave?” 

“I should be fine” 

—

(Y/n’s pov)

Winter break was approaching fast. This year they were having the dance during break so more people were going to be staying over break. The boys had to attend some Christmas gala for father tonight, that was what the meeting had been about. I didn’t know why father chose for me to stay back, but it was one of the many questions on my mind as of late. 

“Y/n” Mattheo raised his voice “Are you listening to anything I’m saying?” 

I looked up at Mattheo who was standing in the bathroom doorway. He was staring at me as I sat on the edge of my bed. “No” I replied

He rolled his eyes and turned back to face the mirror “So where is your mind wandering off to?” 

“I don’t know” I replied blankly

He finished putting on his tie and stepped back into the room “You feeling alright?” 

“Yeah, fine,” I paused. “Why?” 

“I don’t know. You just seem kinda out of it” 

I shrugged “Just tired I guess” 

“Then sleep” He insisted “You don’t need to stay up to keep me company, Theodore will be here in a little bit” 

“Ok, then goodnight” I apparated back to my dorm and didn’t even bother changing into pajamas before I passed out on my bed. 

I was woken up at 1 by Mattheo calling my name, fear and pain filled his voice. I opened my eyes and looked around the room but didn’t see him, he was talking through our minds. I didn’t even think but a second later I was next to Mattheo and the other two boys. Mattheo was on the ground, his eyes dark and I could feel heat coming off of him. 

“Mattheo can’t apparate by himself right now but if we touch him, he will burn us” Theodore explained

I rolled my eyes “And?” I glared at Theodore then grabbed Mattheo by the wrist so the cloth would give less a burn then apparated to my balcony. I let go of him on the ground and he leaned against the wall. I shook my hand out as Theodore and Liam appeared behind me. “Leave me alone” I called out to them and they left. I grabbed my wand and drenched him in water, cooling him off. 

He still looked like he was in pain and I kneeled next to him “What’s wrong?” I asked 

“Mala-” He winced in pain “Malachi did this” 

“What can I do?” 

He shook his head then closed his eyes, his face filling with pain again. 

Miles appeared next to me holding a potion “Here, give this to him” I grabbed it out of his hands and pulled the top off. I gave it to him and a minute later he looked better. I glanced back at Miles “Where have you been?” 

“Excuse me?” 

“You're here for like a week then you disappear then come back for a day then you're gone again then out of nowhere you just appear. You show up at the most random times” 

“Are you accusing me of something?” 

“No, just where have you been?” 

“I don’t have to explain myself to you” He replied, frowning. He took a couple steps back then disappeared. 

I looked back at Mattheo, he stood up and faced me. His eyes moved to my hand, it was red and had slight burns. I reached for it and touched it, I flinched away from his touch for the pain it brought. “I’m sorry”

“No it’s not your fault, I was the one who decided to do it” I replied, putting my other hand on his shoulder. 

“I can try to heal it, if you want” He reached for my hand and pulled it up. I closed my eyes at the pain “Sorry” He apologized. He grabbed his wand and waved it over my hand. I looked down and saw it had healed. 

I gave a small smile as I looked up at him “Thanks” 

“No problem” He returned the smile “I’m sorry for disrupting your night” 

“You didn’t” I replied but after a second I took it back “Ok, you did but you were in pain, you need my help” 

“Yeah, I knew the boys weren’t going to risk getting burned” 

“It’s just a burn, hurts for a second, and it’s healable” I gave a small laugh then looked towards the ground. 

(Mattheo’s pov) 

She looked back up at me, her emotion no longer happy “What happened?” 

“Everything was going fine until Malachi arrived, he knew that there would be a lot of people with a lot of magic in one place” I started 

“He needed more magic for something? He already has a lot” 

“Yeah, I don’t know, I think maybe he is doing something that requires a lot of power” I paused “Right before he was going to leave he saw me, and I don’t know what spell he used, but whatever it was, it made my powers act up” 

“Did he say anything, or did you overhear anything?” 

“He might have mentioned Thomas’s name or something but it was very loud, I could barely hear myself”