(Thomas’s pov) 

We all went back to the school and I brought Y/n and put her in her bed. I layed on my bed and stared up at the ceiling. Mattheo came in and sat on his bed, facing me “Whatcha thinking about?” He asked

“Y/n” I replied. I sat up and faced him “I’m scared for her, she just went through so much and now she killed someone” 

“That someone was hurting her” 

“Yeah I know but she still did kill someone, I remember the first time you killed someone, you got drunk and almost killed yourself” 

“The first time you killed someone you locked yourself in your room and didn’t eat for 2 or 3 days, I thought you were going to starve yourself to death” Mattheo contered 

“You see my point, we didn’t take our first deaths smoothly at all, Y/n’s probably not going to” 

“Name one person who doesn't care about the people they have killed” 

“Father and psychopaths” I replied 

“Nevermind” He took it back. I gave a small smile but then frowned again.

“Knowing Y/n she is probably going to try to fill her mind with other things like reading all while she’s breaking on the inside, to afraid to show her feelings and she wouldn't be able to even understand all the voices in her head telling her what she did was wrong” 

“Ehh” 

I looked back into Mattheo’s eyes “She may seem tough but she’s just hiding her emotions because she doesn't want to look weak. We carry our last name with hate and pride. People expect certain things things from us, they don’t expect us to cry, they expect us to be confident, evil, to act like the royalty we are not”

“No, they expect you to act like royalty, they expect me to be off breaking rules, smoking, and drinking and doing other stuff” He argued “Anyway I’m going to go to the astronomy tower, see you later” He got up and left. 

I paced back and forth in the room then went and looked out the window. I heard a gasp from behind me and I turned to see that Y/n was up. I walked over to her and sat at the end of her bed “Are you ok?” I asked. She looked around the room and seemed confused.

“Was it all a dream, how did I get here?” 

“I don’t know, what happened in your dream?” 

“I was tortured and then you came to get me and… I.. killed… someone” 

I closed my eyes and lowered my head. I didn’t want to admit that it was real and that she really did kill someone, but I couldn’t lie to her, not now. I looked back at her face. “That was real,” I said slowly. Her face changed and she looked sad and worried, then her eyes widened with realization and she covered her mouth. 

“I actually… killed… someone” She hugged her knees and buried her face in her legs and started crying. 

I put a hand on her shoulder “Hey, hey it’s ok, she was going to kill you, she was going to kill all of us and you stopped that, you saved my life” 

She looked up at me with a red face “I did?” She asked quietly 

“You did” I confirmed and she gave a small smile then she frowned again.

“I need to get fresh air” She got up and went out the door. I knew where she was heading, the astronomy tower, Mattheo was there. 

(Mattheo’s pov) 

I was hanging out with Theodore on the astronomy tower, smoking. It had been a chaotic last few days and as much as I knew that Thomas hated it when I smoked, and I knew it was bad for your health, it helped me calm down. 

I heard someone coming and Theodore glanced at me. A few seconds later Y/n appeared “Y/n?” Me and Theodore asked at the same time. Y/n looked tired but glad to see me. She came to me and gave me a hug, she came away with my box of cigarettes and my lighter, she grabbed one out of the box and lit it like she had done it many times before, then threw the box and lighter back at me and put the cigarette to her mouth then walked to the other side of the tower and looked out over the castle grounds, smoking. Y/n never smoked and she didn’t like it when I smoked either so I was surprised. I exchanged a look with Theodore and he came to stand next to me. 

“Does she usually smoke?” He asked

“No, she’s never done it before that I know of” I raised my eyebrow “She hates it when I do it as well so I have no clue” I looked at Theodores face, he looked like he was in love with her, I elbowed him in the ribs.

“Hey” He looked back at me “Sorry” I rolled my eyes and shook my head.  

Thomas appeared at the door and looked from us to Y/n, then back at us. He walked over to us and stared at me “What did you do?” He asked 

I put my hands up “I didn’t do anything, she took them from me then grabbed a cigarette, lit it then threw the box and lighter back at me, then walked over there. I swear I didn’t do anything, you know how Y/n is better than me” Thomas quickly glanced at Theodore then turned and started walking towards Y/n. I could see them talking then Y/n started shouting 

“Theodore stay here, I will be right back” I walked towards them and touched Y/n on the shoulder “Are you ok?” I asked 

“I’m fine, Thomas is the one that’s causing the problems” She gestured to Thomas in front of her. 

“What problems?” I asked 

“He’s telling me what to do and I just want to do what I want and be alone” Her eyes turned crimson and she glared at Thomas

“Fine” Thomas declared “I’ll leave” He walked away and left the tower. Y/n watched as he left and her eyes were still on the door. A few seconds later she snapped her gaze back to me, her eyes were still crimson. She blinked a couple of times then her eyes returned to normal and she looked around, confused. 

“How did I get here?” She asked 

“You came up here” I replied 

“And why do I have a cigarette in my hand?”  She threw the cigarette off the tower and shook her hand “Did you give it to me?” 

“No you stole it from me, do you really not remember” I asked

“The last thing I remember is being in my dorm, talking to Thomas”