Four Years Older
I have OCD, and I obsess over random things until they're perfect. Anywho, I like this boy, but for 7 months out of the year, he's 4 years older than me. I talk to him every day and we text. He doesn't know I like him, and I've been wanting to tell him I like him, but my brain is telling me not to. I ended up writing three songs for an album called 'Four years Older' and it has three songs (more are being written) about the age difference. I really like this boy, and I've never really felt the way I do about anyone else. I'm not going to tell him I like him because in grade school liking someone two grades higher is a crime. Plus, he a fantasy. You can't date fantasies. I'm probably going to be writing a story about an age difference in high school. P.S I understand if you think it's not appropriate for me to like someone who is four years older than me, but please, no hate comments. I've thought a lot about the way I feel, and it literally keeps me up at night, so please go gossip to your friends, but don't give me the crap.
Last Updated
04/05/22
Chapters
3
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740
Someday: Song #3
Chapter 3
Someday
Dear God, when you created me did you think about him
How hard it would be
For me
Once I watched a show I liked
He was three years older than her
He told her someday and she was happy
Why can’t it be the same for me
Why can’t I be happy with someday
Where’s my someday
My someday doesn’t see me
He’s far ahead the trail
No matter my speed I won’t catch up with him
Dear God, when you created me did you see his smile
Did you see him laughing with another girl
When I watch him I only see happy
Is that really him
Does he have layers like me
Is he with her for her smile
I can smile too, I think
I can put a fake face on
I can be your everything, just please turn around
I want you to say one word
Only one word to me
It’ll make my heart jump towards you, and you can keep it
Dear God, do you see a someday coming
Please tell me that you do
I need a someday for my sanity
God, dear god, please tell me
Where is my someday
Is he too far
I didn’t think four years was a lot
Mommy and daddy are more
I didn’t think his smile would kill me
I didin’t think I fall for him
Out of all the boys my age
I didn’t think I’d notice him
But he came up to me that day and told me his name
I wanted to be friends and nothing more
Then I saw you standing there and I knew
That all I wanted was
For you to be my someday
Can you be my someday
All I want is for you to be my someday
Dear God, please tell him to say someday soon
