I woke up feeling empty but also so full of emotions. I had been with my lover for the whole night. I cried and cried in his arms trying to get used to the idea that my horrible life wat coming back. My father had left town i think, and i had not seen or heard from him in 8 weeks, i had to go back to highschool which was a living hell is what i knew. I had to say goodbye to all my friends for quite some time but i still was not broken all the way as i know that Draco will and can be in my life and in every life, that is what true love does you see, i cant live without him and i think i would go crazy if something happend to him. The worst of all left is that i had to cut out magic, it is one of the only things that i can say is mine and that i can or could control in my entire life. This was probably one of the worst nights in my life that my boyfriend Draco Malfoy had saved me from. I didnt close my eyes all night and neither did Draco, i must admit that even he cried. I know why he cried becouse he told me that i was the only thing keeping him from breaking and giving up, i was the only thing that had him feel love for the first time and the love i showed him all these years. Our friends were still clueless about what Dumbledore said to us, the only thing they knew is that i didnt leave my room for a day and that Draco was really absent in classes. They also probably noticed how broken we were when we came back from the talk that took 2 hours. But i was confident that the last days was gonna be the best days at hogwarts possible, i was gonna chear for every class, even potions which i hate and really suck at. You can think that there are worst things in life then getting back to the muggle world, but i cant use magic otherwise i will get sick and i knew i wasnt gonna see my friends atleast till christmas break, this was hard to take as we see eachother every day even in the breaks we would just come over at eachothers houses every other day, we were al lso close and i really depend my life on them. This is gonna be really hard without my friends/magic and with everything that is going on at my muggle fair home which i hated a little at this time around i was broken once again. And you will later find out what all happend in these years so you'd understand how this feels.