After we all got settled, we decided that we will go on a walk around the little park that was close by. Once we were there we started messing around and just having fun. I pulled Kate away to talk to her about what happened. I made her sit by me on a park bench. "I need to talk to you," I said, staring her right in the eye. "what happened?" Kate asked. "UGH....I had "the" nightmare" I said "oh my god are you ok?" she asked because Kate is the only one I told about my past but she promised not to tell anyone. She overheard me crying at school one time and I couldn't help myself and told her what happened. "yeah i'm fine" "what else happened?" "well......" I said kinda blushing. "oooh" "Kadin asked if I was okay and he was so sweet" I said as red as ever. "awwww" "I know and I really want to tell him the truth about how I feel" "you should. You two look so cute together" "ok... i'm going to do it right now" "Tell me how it goes," Kate says as she gets up from the bench and runs to where the others were at, taking pictures. I get up as well and go to find Kadin to tell him. I just walk around the park for a while as I search. I finally spot him as he just stands on the sidewalk on his phone. I just stare at him with the same lonely eyes that I would stare at him at school with. I really want to tell him but what about my past? I don't want it to be like my past. "VIANNA!!! GET DOWN HERE NOW!!!" my father bellowed. I scramble towards the door, knowing that if I wait one second it will be worse. I walk down the stairs and enter the living room, trembling. "WHAT WERE YOU JUST DOING NOW!!??" he asked me. I saw my mother lying on the floor trembling. Even though she was very abusive to me it was because he was abusive to her. She was always hard on me and even though she put it in her way, she wanted to teach me not to end up like her. She was crying on the floor with a big bruise on her face. It was bleeding. "ANSWER ME GOD DAMN IT!!!!" "n..nothing" I said, still shaking with fear. "YOU'RE JUST LIKE YOUR MOTHER!! NEVER DOING ANYTHING!! NEVER CLEANING OR COOKING!!!" I just looked at the floor scared too answer. He grabbed me by the hair and dragged me to where my mother laid. The pain hurts so bad. I snapped back to panting in the park and I forgot what I was doing. Then I see Kadin again. My heart aches, but now I am fine. I sigh and second guess myself. I lean against the tree that I'm close to, facing away from him sighing again. It's like when you say you are going to jump from a big height to a platform that is 6 feet away from you. You know you have to because there is no other way, but you think of all the bad things that could happen. You could fall to your death or you could stay there to scared too move. Should I? What will happen? Does he even like me? My heart says to but my head is whispering no. UGH. I just need to take a blind leap of faith. I turn around to look at him again. He's still on his phone. I just stare at him longingly. I loved him more than anything and I am willing to take a blind leap of faith. I just stand there and stare at him for just a minute longer. Is this when my life starts to turn around? I take one step but I hear someone coming in his direction. I hide behind the tree and peek to see who it was. Jessica was walking down the sidewalk towards Kadin. "Hey" she said. "oh hey" Kadin said looking up to see her walking to him and putting his phone away into his pocket. "What are you doing?" she asked "Oh I don't know actually. I guess I just wanted to hear the peace and quiet for a few minutes" "yeah I guess it's good to get away from everyone once in a while" "uh.. yeah," Kadin said, running his fingers through his hair. "So what happened earlier?" Jessica asked now sitting on the bench by him "huh?" "Why did Allen tell Molly that you guys might be a little while to arrive?" "oh.. well Via had a bad headache" he said lying since I told him it was a nightmare. "oh was it that bad?" she asked "yeah it was pretty bad" "hmm I guess" "what?" he asked kinda confused "..well.. I don't know, it's just that Via kinda seems like really fake to me" It hurts. When you find out that one of your friends doesn't like you but finding out this way was way worse. The least they could do was tell it to my face so that I didn't find out like this. "you do?" Kadin asked and I could tell that he was just as surprised as me. "yeah don't you?" "well.."