On the ninth day I went to see if he was there I passed the store that had the T.V. news always on. I heard something that made me freeze. "The authorities have found a young boy dead in an old car on main street a few days ago. He was identified as the orphan Christopher Ramen. He died from either the cold or from starving. He was only about 5 years old and his parents had been murdered earlier this year." the reporter announced through the screen. I was petrified with fear. He didn't deserve to die. He still could have had a happy life. I leaned against the store wall and sank down. I curled myself up and I cried. I cried for a long time until the store owner came outside and shooed me away. I ran back home with tears in my eyes. Kadin looked at me with a sad look and it felt like my heart dropped. His eyes didn't have it's usual gleam to it. "Vi...." Kadin said and my heart broke. I could feel my eyes start to water but I didn't let a tear escape. The thought of what Chris' life could have been if he hadn't died just pained me. I was never able to believe that he was truly gone but I had to accept it years ago that I would never get to see him. He was so sweet when we spent time together. It made me feels like I was his older sister. Kadin held my cheek with his hand and wiped my eyes that were getting watery. I forced a smile at him and he pulled me close to him. I leaned my head against him and he held me close to him. "my point was that.... i haven't always been able to open up with how i've felt or the things i've seen.... i haven't even told katie about...." I said trailing off. "I'm sorry Via, but now you have me and I don't care what it's about..... I just want you to feel that you can talk to me about anything....not as your friend....but as your boyfriend." he said and my heart melted. I leaned my head closer to his and kissed him. He kissed me back and it helped me to not cry. At least I have Kadin, but a part of me felt that Chris was gone because of me. I pulled back trying to get the thought out of my head. Kadin cupped my face with his hands and leaned our foreheads together. I sighed and Kadin looked into my eyes. Kadin scooted me closer to him and I cuddled closer. "That isn't fair to say Kadin" I said looking at him as he looked down. "..." he didn't respond. "You know how hard it is for me to tell people what is going on and it's not like you always tell me what is happening." I said and he sighed softly. "I just want you to come to me when you need comfort Vi. I will always be here for you." he said and I could see sadness in his eyes. ".....When was the last time you came to me for comfort. Ever since we were sophomores we've been really close but when did you ever come to me when you needed to vent to me? Even after....your parents split up when we were juniors..." I said. Kadin sighed and rubbed the back of his neck. "What if seeing you at school and just talking to you and being around you...was all the comfort I needed" he said looking into my eyes. I felt frozen, with emotions swarming me. I didn't know how to feel. Should I be happy because he felt that way? Should I be sad that he didn't open up to me? Should I be mad that he wants me to open up with him even though he doesn't open up with me? I leaned my head onto him and he messed with my hair. I sighed softly as he leaned his head down onto mine. "Want to go to the park?" he asked as he broke the peaceful silence that filled the room. I looked up at him and nodded. We got up and left the hotel. Once we were by the front doors, we were squashed by all the people by the front desk. I grabbed Kadin's hand firmly to not get lost in this maze of people. They were all trying to talk over each other and seemed to be fighting. "What did the site say her room number was? Wasn't it like 125 or 126 or something like that?" a very tall woman with scarlet red hair asked a small mousy girl that immediately pulled out her phone. I had a big knot in my stomach as I realized that me and Kadin's room number was 125. Kadin pulled me through the crowd and as we finally got outside were we weren't being bumped by random people shoving their way across the room.