My heart stopped. Does he think I'm fake? Is that how he really feels? Here I was about to tell him that I liked him and he thinks I'm fake.
"Well not really" Kadin said, making me sigh in relief.
"really?"
"yeah, but why do you think she's fake" he asked
"I don't know exactly but I think she is hiding something from us" Jessica said
"I know for sure Liv is not fake," Kadin said, making my heart melt.
"Well you believe what you want to and I probably can't change your mind, but I still think that something is off" Jessica said, kinda embarrassed now that Kadin didn't agree.
"I mean she is who she is and I have no reason to believe that Liv is fake" he said so softly I could barely hear it myself even after I leaned forward a bit, but still hidden.
"What time are we going back to the hotel?" Jess asked curiously
"umm.... I think in a couple of minutes" he said after checking his phone to see what time it was.
"Hey..um.. can I show you something?" Jess said, now really red and nervous.
"uhh.. sure I guess"
I was curious so I kinda crawled to the ground and hid behind some bushes that were near the tree but not too close to them so that they could see that I was stalking. Jess looked around blushing hard. When she thought nobody was around (not seeing me of course) she moved closer to Kadin. Kadin was confused and so was I. What was it? Why did she have to check to make sure nobody saw them? Why am I still hiding???
She leaned close to him. I now realized what she was about to do. Was she really going to do that? Maybe I'm wrong? Is she going to try and kiss him? I was hurt already from when she said I was fake, and now she was trying to kiss the only person who I felt I could be true (even though I still hide) and who I liked very much. Besides Katie because she is my best friend and that was different. Yet I didn't do anything. I didn't leap out of the hiding space. I didn't scream. All I could do was watch as I sat frozen in hurt and pain. She was so close to him now. He didn't move one bit but I could tell he knew what was going to happen. Kadin was never the type who would date a lot.


He told me one time that he would rather be good friends with people than to get hurt when things didn't work out. You could say that I was the same. I closed people off after what happened in my past. I didn't really try to get to know people. I moved away from my past or at least that is what I told myself. I tried opening up more after I moved but I kept thinking: What if my past comes back? What if they bring out the darkness that I try to hide. I moved again and again and each time I had to build up courage to finally talk to someone but after all those times moving I guess I kinda got used to pretending.
But then I met Kate. I just moved again and started this new school that was nearby. The school year was almost over already but I went anyway. Everything was easy. All the homework, the tests, and the classes were boring. Since I had no friends I usually spent time studying and learning at home by myself or just working on my drawing skills. The only thing I got bad grades on was participation in class. I never raised my hand, I didn't like presenting in front of everyone. I wasn't that one person in school who would be "the-know-it-all" but I was top of every class. I sat by myself at lunch and tried to avoid everyone.
Then Kate saw me sitting against the brick wall of the school after the day was over. She came and sat by me. I knew who she was. She was Kate Smith, a student at my new school and was a very hard working girl. She was always hanging around her friends during school and after school. A lot of her friends were in my class. It seemed at times that all her friends thought she was the sun. They would always want to be with her. Her friend group consists of: Molly Evans, Lily Jade, Jessica Stars, and Molly's brother and his friends would hang around them as well. Allen Evans, Carson Reads, Jack Moon, Zac Hays, and Kadin Cruz. She knew who I was as well. Everyone in the school knew that I was the best in my grade. The teachers would say what I got on a hard test to prove that everyone could do it. I, of course didn't like it though because that put attention on me.
"Hey...um.. I uh have a question on homework that doesn't make any sense...um.. I was wondering if you could maybe um help me?" she said and I could tell she was unsure that I was nice and that I was a wild horse that was untamed and it would buck her if she wasn't careful.
"what question?" I asked softly as I turned to her.