"Liv?" Kadin asked.
"hm?" I answered not opening my eyes but nodding my head slightly.
"...would.. you like to give this a try?...." he asked very hesitantly.
I finally opened my eyes and he was rubbing the back of his neck and looking at me. His eyes were full of hesitation and love.
"We don't have to if you don't want to or if you just don't want to try it or anything.." he started to ramble again but I cut him off again by kissing him.
He leaned closer to me and kissed me back. We pulled apart and he stayed quiet for me to speak.
"Let's give it a try" I said and he smiled so happily that it made my heart fill up with love and happiness.
I cuddled close to him again and closed my eyes, still not going to sleep but just enjoying the moment. I sighed happily and he sat his phone down on my bedside table.
He stayed laying with me on my bed and I fell asleep. I woke up alone though and I thought it was a dream. I sighed and got up. Kadin was gone and I thought maybe he met up with Allen or somebody. I got dressed in the bathroom just in case he came back in. I thought about my dream. It felt so realistic and I couldn't tell which was real and which parts were just my mind. I sighed again as I finished changing.
I went down to the breakfast room after slipping on my blue hoodie. I got some french toast and sat down at a small table. I didn't see anybody else from the group down at breakfast so I got confused in where they were. I finished eating and left, trying to look for anyone from the group. I looked in Katie and Allen's room but nobody was in there. I checked all the rooms but nobody was there. I just went outside and sat on the bench outside alone. It reminded me of when I first was starting to hang out with Katie.

Katie sat on a picnic table in the park and as soon as I spotted her, I raced over and greeted her. She smiled and I sat down. I helped her with homework and she got distracted by my drawing that I held in my hands. I gave up on trying to get her to focus on the homework and just showed her the piece of paper. She enjoyed looking at the many different art that I would show her. We were just talking now or well she was talking and I was listening. She stopped and waved to someone behind me. I looked over my shoulder and Molly was walking towards us. She smiled as she came over and sat down next to me.
"I better get home" I said gathering my things.
"You don't have to go. We can all just talk together." Katie said trying not to let me leave.
I shook my head and grabbed my bag. She reached out to hand me my drawing.
"Nah, you keep it." I said shaking my head again.
She kept it and I walked home alone. I opened the door and walked inside the old, dusty house after walking around the block three times. Like usual I heard yelling and went straight to my room and curled up in a ball. I didn't cry but I felt sad, pain, and lonely. I heard a loud voice yelling my name and I sighed and hurried down the stairs. He held a broom and I felt fear all around me. Drowning me in fear and pain.

I came back panting from the flash back from the past. I was sweating and my heart was beating loudly against my chest. I wasn't sitting on the bench anymore. Now I was sitting on the floor by the bench as I clutched at the seat so I didn't fall. I stood back up.
"Are you okay?" I heard a voice say behind me.
I was still doozy and didn't recognize it. I spun around so fast I fell to the ground again. Someone helped me up and I clutched my head as it pounded. I finally started to see a bit better and saw Carson standing close to me, ready to catch me if I fell again. I steadied myself and finally was fine. I looked up at him and stood up straight. He took that as a sign that I was ok now and scooted back a bit.
"What are you doing?" I asked him and he fiddled with his fingers.
"..uh.. I've been looking for you" he said coming up with a cover up pretty quick.
I looked at him suspiciously and he got really nervous.
"Where has everybody been?" I asked wondering why I couldn't find them anywhere.
"..uh..they have been... uh... busy..no...they went to the...store" he said and I got really interested in what he was trying to cover up.
We walked inside and just sat in his and Jack's room and watched some TV. He said they were still at the store and that they wouldn't be back until lunch. Even though Carson was with me, I felt lonely. I sighed softly and stared at the new movie Carson picked out. I didn't pay much attention to the movie. I went on my phone and just messaged everyone and asked where they were at. I messaged them separately and they all gave me different answers when they finally responded. I sighed and sat my phone down.
"I'm gonna go on a walk around" I said getting up and leaving.
I walked a few blocks and past different buildings and different people. There were parents, teenagers, old people, kids, and couples. I didn't even know how long I had been walking so I stopped and checked the time. I decided to head back and see if the group was finally back from wherever they were.
When I got inside the hotel I headed for me and Kadin's room. When I opened the door Kadin was laying on his bed, on his phone. He looked up as I entered and smiled at me. I forced a smile and plopped onto my bed. I still didn't know if last night was just a dream or not and my head hurts thinking about it. I felt Kadin plopping down on my bed next to me and I felt butterflies. I sat up and looked at him. He then sat up and pulled me close to him into a hug. I wished that last night wasn't just a dream and was real but I honestly didn't think it was real.
He combed through my hair with his fingers and I closed my eyes. I wished and begged that it was real. He pushed me away just enough to look into my eyes. We stared into each other's eyes and he leaned closer. We kissed and I felt electricity bouncing around with the butterflies. Was I still dreaming? Could last night really have been real?