I just stared into his dark brown eyes and I didn't believe him. I had everything to be sorry for. I woke him up very early in the morning, I got him involved in a fight, and I messed up this whole vacation. He could tell that I didn't believe that I had nothing to be sorry for. He leaned towards me and I thought at first that he was going to hug me, but he kissed me. Our lips touched and I felt fireworks and closed my eyes. He pulled away and we both blushed deeply and he rubbed the back of his neck. I didn't know what to do afterwards. My mind whirled and I couldn't think straight.
"I'm sorry" he said as he combed his hair with his fingers.
"...no... i'm sorry.." I said not even thinking.
"See Liv you had nothing to be sorry for, yet you take the blame even though you didn't do anything" He said and my heart broke.
Did he just kiss me to prove his point?
"no... i'm not sorry for that.. I'm sorry for this.." I said.
He looked at me questionly and I stood up. I walked out of the room and walked out of the hotel. I walked past the bench and just walked. I don't even know why I walked out from him. I didn't even know where I was going. I just walked and walked past buildings and past people. I walked a few blocks and headed for the park. I'll just sit there until I get my head straight.
Then I realized what I did. Kadin would tell everyone that I just left and they would most likely try to find me. That would bring lots of attention to me. I kicked myself inside.
"I'm sorry" I whispered to myself.
I sighed and sat on a random bench. For some reason I needed to feel the freezing cold wind and the smell of oak trees. The stars were out dancing in the sky and I sighed. Will life ever change? Will I finally be able to be happy without getting hit in the face with reality? Could I finally let my problems go and let my guard down? Could I finally tell Kaidn how I felt? All these would never come true.
"Just come back Olivia." said a very too familiar voice.
I looked up and saw him again. He was standing by the bench and folded his arms as he looked at me. I could feel anger rising inside of me like a volcano about to explode.
"I'm never going back with you. You never wanted me in the first place so why would I go back to a house that was never my home." I said standing up to leave.
"We raised you. We fed you. We gave you a roof over your head and you repay us by refusing to come back." He said with frustration in his voice.
"I'm not going to be your little puppet anymore. I'm not going to let you try to control my life! Why can't you Just Let Me Be!" I said still standing.
"DON'T TALK BACK TO ME LIKE THAT YOUNG LADY!!!" He yelled but I didn't flinch.
"I'M NOT A LITTLE GIRL ANYMORE AND I WILL NOT JUST COWER!!" I raised my voice.
"YEAH YOU MAY BE OLDER BUT YOU'RE STILL THE SAME USELESS AND SNOBBY BRAT THAT WAS MY DAUGHTER!!!" he yelled really loud and he slapped me across my face.
I fell to the floor and looked at the ground. I felt like I was weak and useless. I felt that I should just lay down on the cold floor and just die. Maybe if I die then I could finally have the peace I wanted. Maybe making friends made me more weak and vulnerable.
"No! You're Wrong! She's Amazing And Kind And Sweet!" a voice yelled from behind me.
I thought I imagined the voice. I still sat on the cold floor still looking at the ground. Then someone held out a hand. I could barely see their face because it was so dark out. I hesitated since I couldn't even see their face but I saw a familiar outline that made butterflies swarm me. I grabbed Kadin's hand and he helped me up smiling at me. I was confused on how he knew where I was. He of all people would yell when I'm fighting with my dad just doesn't seem right because he doesn't like to fight with people. He could tell that I was confused.
"i'm sorry" I whispered to him.
He sighed and looked at me. I thought he was going to tell me a lecture again but bit his lip nervously and held both my hands in his. Even through the dark I could tell that he was blushing.
"Ah Yes Your Boyfriend. You're Probably Here To Take Her Back And Pretend Like Nothing Happened Right? Well I Will Always Find You Olivia. Where Ever You Go!" he yelled at us and I sighed.
I knew he was telling the truth about he will find me. I ran away for a reason but he found me when I started to think I could maybe forget about my past. Kadin held my hand firmly and started to walk away from him. Once we were out of the park he slowed down a bit more.
"..i'm sorry.." I said again and he looked at me again.
"...Liv.. You have nothing in the world to be sorry for only for saying sorry when you did nothing.." he said still holding my hand.
"..sorry..." I whispered and he sighed.
"I'm sorry for making you run out of the hotel" he whispered and pulled me into a hug.
Even in the freezing cold I felt warm.
".. no... I wasn't even thinking..." I said holding back from saying sorry.
I looked up at him and we stared into each others eyes. I pulled away and sat on the bench. He followed me and sat by me.
We stared at each other again and it felt like the world stopped spinning and everything stopped around us. He leaned closer to me again.