The Giver (A Fanfiction)
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Hi!! My name is Lila Black. I live in a community of sameness. So that means no color, no emotions, no real family, no choices, and no LOVE. Where I live is called a dwelling and I can't touch anyone outside my imminent family. We have no memories but our own. The memories are kept by the Receiver of Memory the most important person in the community. The Elders keep us in line and make the choices for us. We have morning injections to keep the "stirrings" away. The "stirrings" are dreams of people and that those dreams have rules are broken. I took morning injections until I found out what they were. Now time to start. Let's go back to my dwelling.
Last Updated
05/31/21
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Chapter 12
"Why you hurt, Conner?" I ask him, worriedly. He just stares in shock.
"Lila, what's going on with you?!" He half shouts then he whispers. "What did you do to yourself?" He grabs my arm and I try and take it back. But his grip is too strong.
"Let. Me. Go. Conner." I say sternly, still trying to free my arm from his grip. He lets me go but stares at me. The hurt in his eyes shows so much I look at the ground.
"Lil Flower?" He says calmly, trying to make me lookup. "Did you take injections?" I freeze and then remember how nice I felt with him the other day. But it's gone now. Maybe it was never supposed to happen. He takes my face in his hands and makes me look up at him. "Lila, please tell me you didn't do it. Please, please, please." He begs me and it makes me uncomfortable.
"Conner, they made me take injections. I-I want to feel that way again but it's hard. With the extra dose of injections and everything. Now they are going to be watching me take them." I start to cry. Wait I can't cry. But how am I crying?? I look at Conner through tears and he looks at me stunned. "How? Why am I crying?" I ask him trying to stop crying.
"I don't know, Lila." He says in a stunned voice. "Wait does that mean it doesn't work on you anymore? Like after you had the true feeling. Not the fake ones. Maybe you're making it not work so you can feel stuff again." He says but this time with wonder and amazement in his voice. I stare at him in shock. How could this happen? Can it happen? I want it to happen. And just like that my heart takes a huge stab.
I fall to the ground on my knees gasping for air. "OWWW!!" I whisper/shout. It happens again but this time with more force. My lungs get heavier and the same with my heart. It gets hard to breathe and black circles are in the corner of my eyes. I squeeze my eyes shut and try to breathe through the pain. But my lungs barely allow any air in them. "STOP SQEEZING MY LUNGS!!" But this time I shout. Conner is looking at me and carries me to my bike.
"Lila, shhhh. Calm down. It's ok. My mom and dad will see you sense they are both doctors. They will check you out. But first things first." He says.
"Lila, what's going on with you?!" He half shouts then he whispers. "What did you do to yourself?" He grabs my arm and I try and take it back. But his grip is too strong.
"Let. Me. Go. Conner." I say sternly, still trying to free my arm from his grip. He lets me go but stares at me. The hurt in his eyes shows so much I look at the ground.
"Lil Flower?" He says calmly, trying to make me lookup. "Did you take injections?" I freeze and then remember how nice I felt with him the other day. But it's gone now. Maybe it was never supposed to happen. He takes my face in his hands and makes me look up at him. "Lila, please tell me you didn't do it. Please, please, please." He begs me and it makes me uncomfortable.
"Conner, they made me take injections. I-I want to feel that way again but it's hard. With the extra dose of injections and everything. Now they are going to be watching me take them." I start to cry. Wait I can't cry. But how am I crying?? I look at Conner through tears and he looks at me stunned. "How? Why am I crying?" I ask him trying to stop crying.
"I don't know, Lila." He says in a stunned voice. "Wait does that mean it doesn't work on you anymore? Like after you had the true feeling. Not the fake ones. Maybe you're making it not work so you can feel stuff again." He says but this time with wonder and amazement in his voice. I stare at him in shock. How could this happen? Can it happen? I want it to happen. And just like that my heart takes a huge stab.
I fall to the ground on my knees gasping for air. "OWWW!!" I whisper/shout. It happens again but this time with more force. My lungs get heavier and the same with my heart. It gets hard to breathe and black circles are in the corner of my eyes. I squeeze my eyes shut and try to breathe through the pain. But my lungs barely allow any air in them. "STOP SQEEZING MY LUNGS!!" But this time I shout. Conner is looking at me and carries me to my bike.
"Lila, shhhh. Calm down. It's ok. My mom and dad will see you sense they are both doctors. They will check you out. But first things first." He says.
