not worth it (LAMP ship. Sander sides human AU/ soulmates AU)
written by Orpheus Bellamy
sander sides human AU. basically whatever your soulmate wright on themselves, also show's up on you, also you feel your soulmates pain and emotions. Virgil, Logan, Patton, Roman. this time I will actually update daily
Last Updated
05/31/21
Chapters
4
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371
I kick my soulmate in the nuts
Chapter 3
It didn't take long for the ink to appear on my arm. It came first in light blue.
"Purple, what happened? Please Talk to us. "then in dark blue.
"We would deeply appreciate it if you were to try some healthy coping mechanisms." Finally in red.
"Don't hurt your self. we are worried about you." I ignored them and cut again.
"NO! STOP! PLEASE! let us help!" appeared on his hand in Light blue.
"purple... talk to us." then appeared in red. I dropped the knife. shit. I hurt them. the three people who cared about me most, and I sliced their arms with a blade.
"I see you have stopped the cutting. this is good. I would recommend getting your self some water, then come back and communicate to us what happened to make you do this." Dark blue always thought about things logically. I picked up my purple pen and wrote "ok" on my hand.
Then I left my room and went down stairs. as much as I wanted to avoid Remus, I trust dark blue that water will help. so waked down the stairs, shaking, and poured my self some water. I took a sip. Dark blue was right, it helped.
"Virgil?" I wiped around. Remus and Roman were looking at me.
"are you crying?" Remus jeered at me. Roman just looked sympathetic. I saw a trickle of blood fall from 3 cuts
on Romans arm. I saw Roman was holding a red pen. I made the connection. I nearly fainted.
"Virgil are you ok?" this time it was Roman who spoke. "you've gone all white."
"I-um, yea-sorry. I didn't want to disturb you. I mean I just came to get water. so. yea." Roman's face face full of empathy, but I could tell he didn't put the dots together. not yet. it was only a matter of time. so I ran back up stairs.
I rolled up my sleeve and got my pen. "hi" I wrote in my bad handwriting.
"hey kiddo," appeared in light blue. "are you ready to talk?" I hesitated. "I guess so." then dark blue wrote,
"ok, lets start at what happened today that made you feel the need to cut?" how to put this.
"I haven't slept for weeks, I work four jobs, go to collage, can barely afford to eat, I cant co trough a day with out a panic attack, the only thing that makes me feel better hurts the three people who are supposed to care about me the most in this world." I told them too much. I've never told them about my Personal life before. this was not a good place to start.
"oh my gosh. kiddo I'm so sorry," wrote light blue. I thought about what I was going to wright next.
"And now my ass of a roommate invited his cute brother over, and then I made a fool of myself infront of him."
I heard a crash and a yell from downstairs. that's when my reflexes kicked it. I backed up against the wall and curled into a ball. I heard heavy foot steps run up the stairs, then my door flew open. I screamed. the large form of Roman ran over to me and I Just kept screaming and crying and kicking. I don't like being touched. growing up in an abusive home will do that to a person, so when one of my soulmates tried to hug me, I panicked. and I kicked him in the nuts.
"Purple, what happened? Please Talk to us. "then in dark blue.
"We would deeply appreciate it if you were to try some healthy coping mechanisms." Finally in red.
"Don't hurt your self. we are worried about you." I ignored them and cut again.
"NO! STOP! PLEASE! let us help!" appeared on his hand in Light blue.
"purple... talk to us." then appeared in red. I dropped the knife. shit. I hurt them. the three people who cared about me most, and I sliced their arms with a blade.
"I see you have stopped the cutting. this is good. I would recommend getting your self some water, then come back and communicate to us what happened to make you do this." Dark blue always thought about things logically. I picked up my purple pen and wrote "ok" on my hand.
Then I left my room and went down stairs. as much as I wanted to avoid Remus, I trust dark blue that water will help. so waked down the stairs, shaking, and poured my self some water. I took a sip. Dark blue was right, it helped.
"Virgil?" I wiped around. Remus and Roman were looking at me.
"are you crying?" Remus jeered at me. Roman just looked sympathetic. I saw a trickle of blood fall from 3 cuts
on Romans arm. I saw Roman was holding a red pen. I made the connection. I nearly fainted.
"Virgil are you ok?" this time it was Roman who spoke. "you've gone all white."
"I-um, yea-sorry. I didn't want to disturb you. I mean I just came to get water. so. yea." Roman's face face full of empathy, but I could tell he didn't put the dots together. not yet. it was only a matter of time. so I ran back up stairs.
I rolled up my sleeve and got my pen. "hi" I wrote in my bad handwriting.
"hey kiddo," appeared in light blue. "are you ready to talk?" I hesitated. "I guess so." then dark blue wrote,
"ok, lets start at what happened today that made you feel the need to cut?" how to put this.
"I haven't slept for weeks, I work four jobs, go to collage, can barely afford to eat, I cant co trough a day with out a panic attack, the only thing that makes me feel better hurts the three people who are supposed to care about me the most in this world." I told them too much. I've never told them about my Personal life before. this was not a good place to start.
"oh my gosh. kiddo I'm so sorry," wrote light blue. I thought about what I was going to wright next.
"And now my ass of a roommate invited his cute brother over, and then I made a fool of myself infront of him."
I heard a crash and a yell from downstairs. that's when my reflexes kicked it. I backed up against the wall and curled into a ball. I heard heavy foot steps run up the stairs, then my door flew open. I screamed. the large form of Roman ran over to me and I Just kept screaming and crying and kicking. I don't like being touched. growing up in an abusive home will do that to a person, so when one of my soulmates tried to hug me, I panicked. and I kicked him in the nuts.
