Dear Diary

I haven't written in a long time because I've been extremely busy and life has been overly smooth sailing. However, today, my head is in a whirlpool.

A million and one thoughts are flying across and all over my mind at the moment and it, honestly, is driving me a little insane. I can't catch them all at once but bits and pieces get absorbed into the system and it makes me so upset at myself. I'm tired and upset.

My hand hurts and my finger tips are all numb. I want so badly to peel the blisters off but I know I shouldn't so I did not. Oh it frustrates me so so much and it is as though I've lost my sense of touch. 

Julius has been amazingly caring as well. I'm glad to have him by my side.

I just hope I'm mentally and physically better tomorrow.