Dear Diary

I have absolutely no idea what had just happened just now in the Great Hall. I was talking with the Slytherin students about the rules and regulations of assignment submission for the course and suddenly I heard a loud bang at the Great Hall door as it slammed open. A familiar sight, a familiar face. That chiseled jawline was unmistakable, after all, I grew up watching the process happen. Jacques. 

I was absolutely confused. He was holding red roses and blue hydrangeas. Wait. He's the one that's been sending flowers to my office? I just literally stared at the door, at him, in complete shock. What was he doing here in Hogwarts? He should be preparing for the wedding that was supposed to happened in about 3 months! Something's wrong. Did Jacques and Lycia quarrel and he came here to seek advice? I wish. but no, it's all a mess in my head right now. He looked happy. He wouldn't be if he fought with Lycia. What's going on?

He walked through the centre of the Great Hall and stood in front of me. I never noticed how tall he is until now. He towered over me. He reached out to hold my hand, sending an unfamiliar nervous feeling through me. He told me he loved me. This cannot be true. He loves Lycia. not me. I'm sure we've established that a long time ago when he rejected my feelings for him. I left France and travelled the world to get that memory off my head and I'm not about to sink back into it. Lycia's my friend, my best friend, my sister - I will not do something like this to her.

He claims that he has no more feelings for her and had realised that it was all a mistake. Should I give him a chance? I don't know. He asked to go out with me but something is just not right. I don't think I should but within me, I can't help but wonder if this was a chance. No. I must not. This is my best friend's fiancé. I told him that a casual friendly dinner was alright, nothing more than that.

The next moment, about 3 hours later, Lycia came looking for me. She was crying and her eyes swell so badly. I've never seen her like this before. She didn't even know why Jacques left without a reason. All he did was leave his ring behind, the one they bought for their wedding. I don't know if she should know what he just did. So, all these while, while planning their wedding, he's been sending me flowers? That's not right.

I don't like seeing Lycia like this and she doesn't deserve him but he's the only man she wants and she said that she is not marrying anyone else but him. I invited her over for the dinner - awkward. Guess what? No one talked.