The Life Of A Fangirl
A work in progress book that is constantly being updated about my life, basically the ridiculousness of being in love, being a fangirl, being a dancer/actress/singer/writer/songwriter and just being ME. I hope you guys can gain a few laughs and a few lessons from these stories.
Last Updated
05/31/21
Chapters
6
Reads
1,199
Songs.
Chapter 6
Here are some of the songs I've written.
Hear Me
I
try to hold on
I
try not to break
But
trying isn’t good enough
And
sometimes you know you’re gonna fall
But
you pick up the pieces
Of
your messed up world
And
your broken heart
And
every time you miss a little piece
You
shatter like glass
All
over the floor
Because
you just can’t take
The
pain anymore
I'm
screaming at the world but they don't see
How everything's wrong with me
And if you asked if I'm alright
I'd tell you the whole story
About the girl afraid to fly
About the girl who watched herself die
When she had no more hope to give
How she'd forgotten how to live
And maybe, just maybe,
You'd understand about me.
Your
eyes are hollows
You
can count your ribs
And
see your spine
But
no one notices something’s wrong
So
you turn away
With
tears in your eyes
Perfect
isn’t good enough
And
you just want to be something
So
you let them
Treat
you like nothing
And
your heart opens up
And
you can’t feel it beating
I'm
screaming at the world but they don't see
How everything's wrong with me
And if you asked if I'm alright
I'd tell you the whole story
About the girl afraid to fly
About the girl who watched herself die
When she had no more hope to give
How she'd forgotten how to live
And maybe, just maybe,
You'd understand about me.
It’s
a tradgedy, why don’t you see
I’m
broken, so broken,
But
nobody hears and nobody listens
I’m
not better than anyone, I’m practically nothing
And
I’m left crying in the corner
And
I can’t, And I can’t, do this again
I'm
screaming at the world but they don't see
How everything's wrong with me
And if you asked if I'm alright
I'd tell you the whole story
About the girl afraid to fly
About the girl who watched herself die
When she had no more hope to give
How she'd forgotten how to live
And maybe, just maybe,
You'd understand about me.
And
maybe, just maybe, someone will finally
Hear
me.
“This Beautiful Disease”
Can I tell you that if you left
I don’t know where I would be
And it’s the kinda love
Where you are my heartbeat
And did you know that I can’t say
Every word I wrote tonight
It’s easier to sing to others
Than to sing a song to you
Bridge:
Love is a beautiful disease
And the only painkiller
Is the poison
And you are my poison
Chorus:
Come on, love, reach out for me
I wanna tell you what you mean to me
I’m scared you will see in my soul
But I trust you with every story I ever told
And even when you’re gone
I can feel you close to me
And even when I’m breaking
It’s you who makes me free
And if the poison reaches my heart
My love I’m sorry
But if it all fades away
I’ll hold you so close
And if the water fills my lungs
Kiss me goodnight
But if I find myself breathing
I’ll never let go
(Bridge)
(Chorus)
I won’t look back
Don’t you dare look back
I’ll take it all for this love
If my heart will give me a second chance
(Chorus)
Raindrops
Hope for now, my love
As we say goodbye
My heart won’t give
Because you hold it
And somehow you make
The world not seem
So dark and bitter
No nightmares, cause you’re my dream.
Oh, you are simply great,
With a light behind your eyes
But I don’t know how
You fell for a simple fool.
And you’re all I ever wanted
You make me feel safe.
We are not alone in this anymore,
We will walk away from the dark.
And when it’s quiet
I can hear your voice
Between the raindrops
So I know hope lives.
There’s music in the way
You move, confident and bold
And did you know that I called
Just to hear you breathe? Breathe…
Oh, you are simply great,
With a light behind your eyes
But I don’t know how
You fell for a simple fool.
And you’re all I ever wanted
You make me feel safe.
We are not alone in this anymore,
We will walk away from the dark.
Written in our story
Is the meaning of every word
I speak, sing, write to you
Forever your heartbeat in line
With my own
Oh, you are simply great,
With a light behind your eyes
But I don’t know how
You fell for a simple fool.
And you’re all I ever wanted
You make me feel safe.
We are not alone in this anymore,
We will walk away from the dark.
Yeah, I’m only a simple fool.