The Life Of A Fangirl
A work in progress book that is constantly being updated about my life, basically the ridiculousness of being in love, being a fangirl, being a dancer/actress/singer/writer/songwriter and just being ME. I hope you guys can gain a few laughs and a few lessons from these stories.
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05/31/21
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Music.
Chapter 3
Here's a collection of everything I've ever said about music.
Music isn't what's written on the paper.
The paper isn't music, it's telling you how to make the music. Music is something that you hear, in your ears and in your head and all around.
Music is something you feel in your heart and soul and with every muscle and nerve and bone and molecule of your body.
You can't see music.
And nothing will ever be better than music.
That moment when there's a song that you just want to post the lyrics on every social media and write them all over your skin and put them on billboards and force people to listen because then they will understand everything.
If you REALLY want to understand me, you'd have to get on grooveshark and listen to my Sountrack to my Life playlist. Because music will describe me better than words ever will.
MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE I MISS YOU SO MUCH GERARD WAY GET YOUR BOOTY BACK IN THAT RECORDING STUDIO OR I WILL NOT GIVE YOU FRANK TONIGHT.
Sometimes life just works out. Sometimes you don't have to be scared. Sometimes you don't have to be sad anymore. Sometimes you make it. Sometimes you're enough. Sometimes you're just there and that's everything you could ever ask for. Sometimes even all by yourself, you feel infinite again. Because one song can change EVERYTHING.
You never realize how good a song REALLY is until you can't stop smiling while listening to it and there's a thousand memories attatched and it makes you happy and at that moment it's just what you need.
I fall in love again every time I listen to an Ed Sheeran song There's something about the way he sings the words that he sings that gives them so much more passion than I can explain...
I'm a 90s kid in my soul. I feel like I should've grown up obsessing over Pearl Jam and Red Hot Chili Peppers tees. I should've been going to Wheatus, Weezer, Bush, and Counting Crows concerts. I should've grown up watching MTV back when it really had music and crying when Kurt Cobain committed suicde. I should've grown up wearing flannels and grunge... I want to wear my hair the way I like it and wear dark lipstick and no eyeshadow and be a grunge kid and listen to my music all the time and be rebellious but I can't. Because that era's over.... But I was born with it already in my heart. I want to be a part of something that's already over and all because of the music. But to be honest that music has gotten me through more of my life than most people. Can we just please make the world simple again? I don't know how to be mainstream, and I never will be. I can't pull off modern styles and listen to most modern music. I was just not made for this version of the world... I miss something I was never even alive for.
