''I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how. I've never heard silence quite this loud!''

Making friends is hard. You don't know whether they're loyal or not. Maybe you feel like they're your best friend but they don't. When you realize that, your heart shatters to pieces.

I once had a 'best friend'. She was like this really cool girl. Athletic, pretty, funny, like how a popular girl would be. I was overjoyed that I was her best friend. Her partner-in-crime. Everything was going perfectly. We would meet on the weekends and talk, talk, talk. We both went to the same, uh, class. Or club. Since she was new, I started talking to her. The usual. What's your name., what are your hobbies, what's your ambition, stuff like that.

Then everything collapsed. She met these two other girls, who were like her. She started talking to them, and me, being the naive self I am, didn't mind it. I thought that all of us would be best friends forever. It all seems so foolish now. Weeks passed, and it became clear we weren't 'best friends' anymore.

Have you ever done something that you regretted so much? Something so stupid and unkind that whenever you think about your heart breaks? I did.

After me and my partner-in-crime stopped talking, the world felt like Azkaban. I started hating everything and everyone. Even my family, who did nothing but support me and love me. I crushed their hearts. What I did will never be forgivable.

We all lose someone in our life. We're betrayed by them. Maybe our friend, or maybe our significant other.

Something I learned from Frozen is that you should never block out our loved ones. Our family. Our real friends. They're always there for us. And they always will be.

Even if you don't, you have always have yourself. Don't stop loving yourself. Even if everything is fading away, keep loving yourself.

My heart feels like it's breaking as I write this. I still miss her. If you're reading this, even if you don't know what Harry Potter is, I miss you. I miss calling you Rishika even though it annoys you so much. I miss you talking about your future. I miss being your partner.I miss everything we had. I always will. Even when I have amazing friends, and if I become really successful, and maybe I'll go on a road trip with them, I'll think how it would've been if you were there with me. I handed you my heart and you broke it. Even now when it's mended, there's a scar there. A permanent scar. I think of you every single day, and when I do, my heart hurts. It hurts really badly.

But I want to thank those who were always there for me : Emma Lloyd Watson and Martha Granger. You are the ones that I enjoy talking to at all times.
Emma is the person you can talk all day to. She's the one who'll always make you happy and always encourage you. She's like my sister and I'll always love her.
Martha, or as I like to call her Hermy, is just so kind and sweet. She's so supportive and just awesome.

Because of you two, I'm the most happiest person ever. You're always there for me and I'll always be there for you.