his eyes were cold. I couldn't believe what I had done.
"no," Remus said. "he is not sorry. he meant every word of what he said." I felt my heart sink. "don't come with me tonight. none of you." and with that, he turned around and sprinted out of the room. I started shaking. tears welled up in my eyes. James and peter made to run after him. I was about to follow when James stopped me.
"no. you heard what you said. you don't care. so don't pretend to." after he left, I kind of backed out. the next thing I remember was me lying in my bed. I didn't remember how I got there, but as I remembered what had happened, I felt sick. that might have been a hangover, but I felt sick to my stomach about what I said. I checked my watch. it was 2 am. the silence was broken by a sob coming from next to me. one bed over, Remus was crying.

two weeks later

Remus still isn't talking to me. I've tried to apologize, but he just storms off. James and Peter are avoiding me, I have no friends anymore. in potions, Remus used to share a cauldron with me, now he works with the others, leaving me alone. sitting awake in bed at midnight, I realized I deserve no better. and if it had been anyone who said those things, I would have killed them. anyone who would betray there friend like that deserves to die. I deserve to die.

I walked over to my dresser and got a piece of parchment. I wrote down some words I hoped Remus would read. I put the parchment on his pillow. I walked like a zombie to the portrait hole. I wasn't wearing shoes. slowly, I made my way to the astronomy tower.