Today is my first day of my new private school. . My teacher asked every student to prepare a speech about themselves. I'm a normal kid. Brown hair, brown eyes, average height, normal family. So what do I write about myself Here is what I have so far, "Hi my name is Ella." That's it and I love to write but I cant speak in front of my whole class. Ever since the day my brother/best friend left for his boarding school I always hid inside a shell. I didn't talk to people, make any friends, I even stopped doing cross country. I don't know why, its just he would always pull me out of my shell and make me try new things but without him I just feel lost. I always looked forward to seeing him in the summer and over the holidays but for the past 3 years he hasn't come. I would wait and wait but he would never come. I want to write that in my speech, pour my guts out to the whole class but that would just be weird.

"honey time to go to school your dad has work today so you cant be late. I hope your speech is done." said my mom. oops, I only have "Hi my name is Ella." Looks like I have to wing it. as I get into the car every step feels like a mile. the feels like it only take 2 seconds even though it is 20 minutes. I can't do it. I want to run away, be anywhere but here. But I can't. My parents already think I have a problem if I chickened out of my first day of school they would know I have one.